I wish~

I wish...
I wish..
I wish..
I wish..
I wish..
I wish you are now beside me...
I wish that you're mine...
But all of this i just can WISH...
Everytimes when i was down and upset...
I wish i could share my problems with you...
Everytimes when i was happy..
I wish i could share my happiness with you...
I had lost contact with you...
There's no news about you...
All the messages that i sent, is just like sending to GHOST...
What're you doing now?
Are you happy working at there?
Do you take care of yourself all the time?
I really wish that you'll inform me when you get back to Karak..=(
I really wish it...

Issac, i really miss you badly..

如果我能回到从前，我会选择不认识你。
不是我后悔，是我不能面对没有你的结局。
想你，却不打扰你，是因为太爱你。
从此以后，我们的幸福，与彼此都无关了。
你的身影很模糊，你的脸庞很朦胧，但这并不影响我想你的情绪。
我没有很想你，只是在高兴的时候会想起你，你是我第一个想要分享的人。
我没有很想你，只是在不高兴的时候会想起你，你是我第一个想要倾诉的人。
我没有很想你，只是在听歌的时候会突然想起你，不为什么，只是因为那个词里写的好象我和你。
我没有很想你，只是在早晨醒来的时候会突然想起你，不为什么，只因为梦里出现的人好像你。
我真的没有很想你，我只是在我不想想起你的时候想起你。
这样真好，我没有很想你，我只是想你到眼睛湿润。
想你，但却害怕让你知道，所以不敢也不会打扰你。
只有把你的信息藏在手机里，想你的时候把它们翻出来慢慢看，细细地品，然后就不停的偷笑，悲伤。
只有在每个寂静如水的夜晚等你的信息，等来了，心里是一阵莫名的激动，但压抑着满怀的高兴给你发去淡淡的问候、淡淡的玩笑、淡淡的吵闹。
等不来，就只有带着一丝淡淡的惆怅，在半梦半醒中睡去。
在没有你消息的日子里，只有拚命的找寻你的点滴，装做若无其事地打听关于你的一切，然后竖起耳朵听他们说着你的点滴，把这些点点滴滴全都刻在脑海里。
我一直比你想想的更加爱你，可是我却不能告诉你。
抬头望着这个城市的天空，呼吸着这个城市的空气，也会想起你。
想着它也会一直飘到你那里，哪怕是这样，心里还是暖暖的...
我想你，但只是想你，而不打扰你。

Today is the seventeenth days you went to singapore and is the sixteenth days dint sms you...
I miss you so much...

I want to tell you that i am missing you but i dont dare...

How was your life recently?

Isn't it good?

Take good care of yourself...

Remember eat and drink more water...

If tired then rest a while...

[只能自己在这说，但不能跟你说=( ]

What a day=(

You told me you going to singapore already...
What the FUCK!!
Why you want to choose such a "nice" time?
Why want now??
I was totally break into pieces when i saw your message..
Do you know i was crying last night?
I was blanked and i dont know what should i do on that momment..
Told one of my malay friend that you are going to singapore..
I miss you badly, issac..
She had asked me to phone you and tell you i am missing you...
But, if i phone to you and tell you so...
Will i be much better and relieve?
I'm really confuse with it..
Keep crying and crying until i fall asleep...>,<
今早发了一封我很想念你的短信给你。。
你却回我，“我们一定有机会再见面，或许等到我们见面时，你已经学会放开。。”
老实说,我并没有想过要放开。。
等待你，对我来说是一种幸福。。
I'll wait you as long as i still have feelings toward you...
从今天起，也就是你去新加坡的这一天。。
我会一直计算。。直到你回来的那一天。。
相信那时的我还会隐瞒着我对你的那份感情。。
再此希望你原谅我。。
因为我会一直隐瞒着你。。
这样你就不会难做人了。。

You're always stay in the bottom of my heart...
You'll never know the truth..=(
Goodbye...
Take care at SingaporeT_T

Recently

Many things happened recently...

I am sitting for my mid term exam since 19th of May until 30th of May...

Whole exam week i have no mood to study..

All subjects is going to get a bad result=(

I cant concentrate when i was studying even for one subject..

You had rejected me last month...=(

I was totally drop into the hell...

Miss you every second, every minutes, every hours, everyday...T_T

Issac...~~

I miss you so much...

Really miss you=(

对不起，谢谢你。。

想对你说对不起和谢谢你。。

对不起：

1. 对不起因为时常跟你胡言乱语，　说不三不四的东西。。

2. 对不起当初跟你那么坦白。。

3. 对不起因为我时常烦你，乱你。。

4. 对不起我已经踩到很深了， 对你的感觉越来越深了。。=(

谢谢你：

1. 谢谢你跟我坦白了，虽然是我不想要的答案。。更不想知道的事实！

2. 谢谢你之前肯跟我讯息，讲电话。。

3. 谢谢你还把我当成朋友。。

=(

Today still dint get any of your message..
I feel want to call you again...
But after yesterday, i am scared already...
You rejected my phone call..
MY GOD!
Issac, i need only 5 minutes to apologize...
Can you give me that 5 minutes?
I am so suffer without calling you or even sms-ing you=(
When can i get your forgiveness?
I am so sorry...

Please stop ignoring me..

I need you...

Need your support...

Need your message althought it is also one word...

Please forgive meT_T

Failed!T_T

At lats, i still cant endure..
8.50pm phone to you...
After five times du du...~
You rejected my phone call...T_T
Why i phone to you?
STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!

I am sorry...

Issac >,< Sorry

Today dint message you also...
Scare to phone you already...
All the phone called is answered by the station..=(
Scared to message you, cause all the message that i sent is no respon...
You want to angry me until when?
Issac, tell you something la..
My birthday i dont hope to receive any present...
I just hope to receive your wish...
Hope to hear your voice and can talk to you...
That's all i want..T_T
_______________________________
Laziness is attacking me nowadays...
I am lazy to do homework, study..
What the hell!
Mid term exam is coming soon..
I am still relaxing>,<
My mind is full-filled with your image...
I cant concentrate=(
Issac, help me please...
Give me some support..
I need your supportT_T

I am sorry...
Please talk to me..
Please pick up my phone call and reply my message..><

Issac, I am sorry

I know i am wrong already...
Can you forgive me??
Is so suffer when you dint reply my mesage, dint pick up my phone call...
The most suffer, sad is you off your phone after many times i phoned to you...
I know how annoying am i...
But all of the annoying is just because i wanted to apologize...
Cant you give me one chance to apologize...
Two days you dint pick up my phone call..
Today i dint disturb you anymore...
Cousin sister asked me to dont find you for one or two weeks...
But for me, one day is already very suffer...
Even one minute also cant....
I already cant see you, now sms with you also cant already...
What else i can do nowadays?
Cousin sister just told me that last time when you both quarrel that time...
You dint even talk to her for almost two months...
This time you angry me, will dint talk to me for how long leh??
This question always came out in my mind...
I am so scare now...
I scare i cant receive the present...
Cant hear your voice anymore...
Cant sms with you anymore...T_T
Issac, i am so so so sorry...
Can you please forgive me for my mistaken and stupidness??
I know wrong already...
Please give me one more chance...
I dont want to lost you=(
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Everytimes when i hear the two songs that we sang together...
My heart will automatically start to pain...
Mind is full with your image...
I miss you so muchhh!!

Forgive me pleaseT_T

My sense tell me that there is something gonna happen..

What you had told her?

Is there any secret between you and she?

Why can't you tell me?

Something is gonna happen..

Don't hope that it's about me...

If it's about me, the friendship between me and you will end FOREVER!

I will HATE you FOREVER...

And the hateness toward you will never end until my last breath!

Toh Zhen han, i HATE you!

I am so so so sorry=(

对不起
对不起
对不起
对不起
对不起

I am sorry
I am sorry
I am sorry
I am sorry
I am sorry

Maafkan saya
Maafkan saya
Maafkan saya
Maafkan saya
Maafkan saya
Maafkan saya

阿弟，对不起。。

不要生气我好吗？

我以后不会将了。

我答应！

=)

Yesterday night phone to you...

First thing that i asked was " you angry at me izit? "

But the answer you gave me was " No la...傻婆！ "

When i heard this i was totally relieved..=)

Talked with you for almost half an hour..>,<

We sang 小星星and爱一直存在together..

I was so happy...xD

After talked with you...

I thought that, if i dint phone to you yesterday, i will be emo until the day you send message for me..

I am so stupid isn't it?>,<

I miss you so much la..

So hope you can come down KT and play...=)

Choy, my feelings toward you is increases day by day^^

I will still love you ♥

I mean every actions

That I do and say

And in addition I love you in every way

This is the feeling I urge to show you

but no chances were coming For me to tell you I wish every night

This secret will leak

But with you in sight

I stayed shy and weak

I tried and tried

As my lips mumbles

The words only hides

Making it impossible

I really want to Reveal this secret to you

Even if the answer is "no" I will still love you..

Only you=)

Never came true♥

Ever day I wish you were mine ,

but all we do is talk and chat online.

One day I want to know that you'll be there at school with that sweet smile and that you would never act like a fool.

Ever night I wish you would know that i'm thinking of you and hopeing you're thinking of me.

I dream that you would ask me out ,

but I always have my doubts.

All I know is you're just a wish that may never came true..

Only for you, Mr. Issac=)

loving you from far away♥

Although my love for you is growing by the day,
but I can only love you from far away.
With each passing day,
I am drifting further away.
There will come a day,
where I shall forever be away.
But until that day,
I shall continue loving you from far away..

No matter how far you are at now..

I will never give up..

You are totally different from other days=)

Different different...
I like the ways you talk to me...=)
Miss it lots~~~>,<
Maintain it , ok..
Thank you=)

Miss you so much!!

Issac...I miss you...

Issac, why you treat me like that?
Sometimes you treat me good but sometimes no...
You gave me hopes but then you made me fall again..
I do hope you will give me an answer as soon as you can...
I really want to know..
When you just can give me an answer?
At least tell me you like me or not..
Like me just two words nia..
Dont like me just three words..
Not hard to say what...
Why you till now also dont want tell me...
I always sent some sadness message for you, you cant feel my sadness??
Haiz..Why why why??????

Please~=(

为什么？

为什么你们将子对待我？

起初，你们让她用电话时，我没事的。。

因为你们说过只是会在她出去时让她用而已。。

可是，你们说话不算话！！

你们让她永远都用这电话了！

从那一刻开始，我已很肯定地告诉我自己。。

你们是偏心的！

今天还说要买一架新电话给她，你有没想过我的感受？

我不明白。。

就只因为她厉害读书而我不厉害？

我知道我以前做了些事让你们不开心。。

可是我现在已经改变了自己。。

你们还不满意什么？？

我不想在这读政府学校你们不给。。

你们为何不让我出去闯闯呢？

难道你们就想一整世把我关在这里？

我不是小孩咯！

你不让我独立，但我要吗！

我想看看，以后她读完中五后你们会让她出去读吗。。

要是你们让她出去读，我一定跟你们反到够够！！

从此都不会回家！

Random

Went out with friends but it was so boring...
Went to cousin's house around four...
Gathered with them...
Whole day thinking of you...
I was thinking why you want to treat me like that..
Last night the message that you sent made me down...
Made me felt sorry..
Am i wrong cause crushed on you?
I just wanted you to give me an answer...
But you till now also dint give me any respon..
Why you want to give me hope?
After you gave me some hope...
Then you made me fall again and again...
It is hurt you know?

Issac, please giv me some respon..

Dont treat me like i am not exist..

I am hurt, i am upset..

All is just because of you..

My new year=(

Luckily you dint Break your promise...=)

I finally saw you on Friday...阿弟,你变得好帅!!

3.30am like that, you reached jiemei's house...

When four something, you went back to home cause too tired already=(

Just only that one hour you let me to see you...

Why so fast?Can't you stay longer or even sleep at there?=(

Do you know i miss you badly...?

Why you just let me see you for only one hour?Why?

The next day, i message you at nine something...

Asking you whether are you coming...

You said after you do finiah your thing then you will come...=)

I waited for a few hours...But you also dint appear  in front of me...

When dad said"Let's go", 我的眼泪就在我眼眶里游来游去..

I was very sad and dissapointed...

After a few hours journey, you suddenly sent a message come and said"I dont want go cause i scared i will make you cry"

When i saw this message, my tears dropped...T_T

I was really upset and dont know what to do...

Why you want to treat me like that?

What i have done cant you feel it?

At Ipoh for 4 days 3 nights.. Very boring...

The 3rd day of Chinese New Year went back to Karak..=)

16th February 2010, you made me angry...

I had scolded you but you just seems like nothing...

My heart was so pain...=(

难道你就感觉不到我对你的那份爱吗?

我的那一番心思你能感觉得到吗？

你为何要将对我？

你知道我会很心痛吗？

阿弟，你不要再将对我了好吗？

不要再那么冷了。。（哭）

I miss you so much!=(

Please dont treat me like that already...

I got feeling one...I am not an animal...=(

New year, meeting you=) =(

New year is closer and closer...

The first day of new year drop on 14th Feb(Valentine Day)

I am going back to hometown this Saturday...

My boring new year is coming soon...>,<

This friday going back to Karak...

You said you are going back too=)

I am so excited...

Excited to meet you on this friday...

I really hope that you wont break your promise...

Hope you will come back on this friday...

Come back let me see see your face...

See whether you are healthy or not...

See whether you got fatter than before or not...

I hope you are healthier and fatter than before...=)

I miss you so much=(

Today is the forth day dint receive your message since friday=(

You must take care o...

Don't make me worry...

Choy, i hope you will go back Karak this friday...

Hope you can accompany me...

I miss you badly..=(

This new year is happy or sad leh??

I hope this new year i can be happy abit...

要我能开心的过新年，就要看你有没有回了，阿弟。。

I miss you so much=(

The only one-You=(

Today is the eight days dint receive any message from you...=(

I am missing you and worrying you...

Do you know i am missing you alone at here?

Do you know i am worrying you at here??

You dint even reply my message...

Are you trying to avoid from me?

Or...

You got gf already?You got like de people?

At here, i have nothing can do...

Just keep missing you, worrying you...

You dont even know my heart was very pain...

You dont know...=(

I miss you, Seong Hee Choy!=(

02.01.2010

Is the nineteen days you went to work..

Today woke up at half past six...(Walau!Damn tired...Last night slept at half past two, today need to wake up so early...)

At Bitara till half past four then went back to shop...

So tired today...

Need to rest earlier, tomorrow school reopen le..

So sad...=(

Will start to busy after this...

Dont know will less sms with him mar...

So scare...

I dont hope this thing will happen...=(

Really hope=(

Will less online le after this...

Chaoz~

I miss you..

New Year Eve

Went to Secret Recipe to have my dinner with buddies...
After taken my dinner, walked to Astaka with buddies...
Then walked to TTC to have some drinks... 
Thought will countdown, padahal no...
Lazy want wait and i was boring just sitting at TTC to wait untill twelve...
Told him that i going back earlier, then he suddenly发脾气..
SHIT him!!!
Keep saying me after i told him...
Said he came out just cause of want accompany me...
So??
Your daichi la...
I dint ask you to come out just because of accompany me la...
I no need you to accompany...
Now single i think i more happy...
Who i also can talk with, who i also can like...
No need to care about your feeling...
It's FREE!!!!
Suddenly your face became black...
Sure ask you de la me...
As a friend i also will care you de ok...
关心你反而被你讲。。
说你不要我的关心。。
不要就罢！！
然后，突然又发一封讯息给人。。
说不要做朋友。。
干你妈！！！
不要就不要咯！！
过后又突然跟人大声说话~
我才不稀罕你这种朋友啊！！
晚上回到家时，你又突然打电话来。。
我真不懂到底你要的是什么。。
才跟人说不要做朋友了， 然后又打电话给人要人跟你聊天。。
我都被你搞得团团转了啦。。
拜托你放了我好吗？？
十一点多时，发了一封讯息给睡猪。。
问了睡猪：“倒数后可以讲话下吗？？”
然后，睡猪说：“可以啊！”
然后我就一直躺在床上等睡猪的电话。。
不过等了很久睡猪还是没打来。。（睡猪会不会以为我要打去而不是他打来？）
到最后睡猪还是没打来。。
算了，算是我跟睡猪没缘份咯！
发了讯息过去找睡猪。。
睡猪不够睡头痛了。。
看到这封讯息，我感到好伤心~

好想念你！I miss you so much=(